The most difficult part of trying to be the person that they want you to be is the fact that you hate that person,
and they couldn’t care less whether or not you want to be an authentic version of yourself in this one life that you have to live.
Caring about the image they have and the image you have is exhausting but somehow an integral part of making your situation work,
which is part of being a person today because the person you could be tomorrow hangs in the balance of too many factors to count.
If you dare to be anything that could be considered “other” in a checklist of identifiers that shouldn’t matter, then
you aren’t worthy of the public support of popular faces that have the pull in society that is almost mandatory to be properly successful.
Support is a seven letter word that bears the weight of this world because so much relies upon it, and so much requires it,
and so much more than the reliances and requirement of this singular word is the fact that it is medicinal to our brain.
We need support to survive mentally and emotionally, so to have support –
it is akin to having power.
We have seen the power of support turn an idiot into one of the most influential individuals in the world –
we have seen the power of support turn bigots and supremacists into lawmakers and political influencers –
we have see the power of support build walls and break promises.
Too often support is the fine line between someone fighting through the struggles of their lives and ending it swiftly for permanent relief from the burden,
or the difference between someone lying and burying their emptiness in the bellies of strangers because they have had to isolate themselves from the version of themselves you expect them to be,
or it is the differentiating factor between pretending to believe in something that they adamantly oppose so that they don’t have to find out who values their faith over their friendship.
Support is often the deciding factor in everything that we do and it sways the actions of millions of people every single second of the day,
because with support, mighty things, good or bad, can happen,
and without it, a difficult world becomes muddied by those who do have it and overrun with the hive-minded loudmouths who think they can say how things have to be…
The most difficult part of trying to be the person that they want you to be is the fact that you hate everything about that person, but
will they support the person that you want to be?
On one hand, you don’t really care what they think about the authentic version of yourself,
it’s more that you don’t feel like you should have to fight for their support because these people should love you the way that you are regardless of any other factors – they are your friends, your family.
It’s not like that.
It’s not that easy.
This reality makes you wonder if it is you that needs their support, or do they need you to need their support so that they feel wanted and powerful,
as if they aren’t already manipulating the situation enough by their offhanded comments that belittle and diminish your sense of self.
It makes you really, really wonder:
Who really needs the support after all?
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