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Writer's pictureAlixx Black

Post-partum

Even though it has been getting more media coverage, Post-partum depression is a mental illness that rarely gets addressed. Post-partum depression occurs in women after childbirth while adjusting to life with a child. Common symptoms are similar to that of regular depression, but some more exclusive symptoms include: excessive worrying, oversleeping or never sleeping despite when baby is sleeping, withdrawing from family and friends, self-doubt in parenting skills, thoughts of harming self or baby. Source.

Why do other moms make it look so easy

Are they trying to insult my ability to raise my child

Or is it an effort to make me see that I’m overthinking

In any case, it’s infuriating

I hear my baby crying but I can’t make myself move like they do

So I stand staring out the window at the good moms

Chasing after their toddles with their babies in tow

What fabulous women they must be

Fabulous is a word that will never describe me

My husband is walking across the room from his office

Probably asking me if I forgot the monitor again

I didn’t forget

I just ignored it

Hatred for who I am bubbles beneath the surface

But do I hate myself for failing or my child for not being perfect

Sometimes I can’t differentiate between the two

And if you point it out to me

I’ll hate you too

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