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Writer's pictureAlixx Black

MHA Bonus: Depedency/Change

How cool is that I’m able to share another bonus poem for the Mental Health Awareness Poetry Initiative?! This is another poem I wrote after a couple of weeks of reflecting on some of my friendships, and the fact that many people that I would’ve considered friends are not longer on my radar. This is true for a lot of people, and that was an interesting idea to explore for me because friendships are only as strong as *both* people make it, and it doesn’t always go both ways, which is what this piece explores from one side of the “tracks,” so to speak. It words with a ton of prompts, but I wrote this during Week 4, and so I felt like it could easily fit into the experiences of dependency and change, though it could really fit with another three or four prompts from the month too. Anyway, without further adieu – here’s another bonus poem:

What do you do when your best friend dies

But doesn’t really die

They just leave without saying good-bye

And they never look back after they move on

They’re just gone, going, gone

So your list of question goes on and on

Like alarms in your head

Popping up in the car or in bed

Just continuously asking why they left you behind

And there’s no way that you can describe

The feeling of loss

Or your broken heart

It’s just as painful as when someone does die

Only when someone dies you know that that’s just life

Unlike when someone just chooses to walk away

With nothing they feel that they need to say

As if your time with was just all part of a game

You feel like you’ve been deceived

You feel like a fool because you believed

That this person you thought you knew

Actually, really, honestly cared for you

You were there for each other through and through

What made them walk out and close the door

What in the hell did they do that for

This is the worst kind of hurt

That I’m not sure you’re really worth

Since I can see you standing right there

And you won’t look at me, so all I can do is stare

The life of our friendship dissipates

I want to cry out but I hesitate

To even demonstrate

The kind of love and hate

That I can no longer explain

I guess this just you letting go

At least now I know

So I can keep walking this road alone

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