Agora is the term used in Ancient Greece to describe an open, public space where people congregate. Source. Phobia is a term used to explain a psychological fear of a specific object or situation. Source. Combining those words, you will have the term agoraphobia, which is a fear of public places and situations that could cause an individual to feel trapped, embarrassed, or helpless. Source.
I was excited to come
Until I got here
And now that the lights are dimming, I think I might die
It’s not that I’m afraid of the dark because I’m not
I feel really comfortable in the pitch blackness of a dark room
But this space – my folding seat angled to see the screen at the front of the theater
It is too small, too restrictive, and too immobile
Being here means I can’t move
I swear I wanted to see this movie so badly that I would’ve given anything to be here
Even just one hour ago
I wish I could explain why now my body feels like it’s shattering beneath my skin
The world is imploding, and I’m the exact point at which everything crumbles
My insides are shredding apart
My brain hurts
My lungs are punctured
It’s just a movie
But I think I might be the main attraction
As I crumble and die in front of everyone around me
Trying to camouflage myself from the embarrassment I’ve created in my brain
I tell myself that once the movie is over – I’m never doing this again
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