Time to Tarot Read Again my friends
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I haven’t posted anything in 2020 and I’ve been working all day on another job and I needed to do something else. Something I cared about doing, and I’ve had the idea of doing another tarot reading post – so – that’s what I did to destress for the night. You didn’t as for it but it’s here anyway: another tarot reading about yours truly…
Reflecting on the Last Reading:
Since it’s been so long since my last tarot card reading (September 2019), I thought it would be good to review what that said and share if it came to be or if it was malarky. Since I had to interpret the readings in two different ways, I want to do a summary of each paired with a review of whether or not it was truly reflective of the things that happened.
Reading #1: “Don’t let your insecurity drive you to be overly generous to the needy – you’ll end up with less energy and less money. Progress is sluggish; delays are inevitable. Are you looking at things honestly? Find ways to take control of the situation. You don’t always have to come out on top. Accept compromises and apologies. Reprioritize. Are you feeling inferior about your intellect, education, or communication skills? Stop it! Don’t exaggerate your fears or be reluctant to take action. Problems with your mother and other intimate women are imminent.”
I rated this reading as a 4 out of 5 because I did agree with a lot of what was being said here. I had felt like insecurity was a problem of mind and I wasn’t making a lot of progress at the time because of some issues that came up that were out of my control. Reprioritizing was a big thing because I was working multiple jobs at the time. Not taking action is something I’d been struggling with a lot – being unable to commit to changes I needed to make.
A month after this, I applied to a job that was going to benefit me and my family a lot, and it was hard to accept that I was leaving a job I really cared about at the time. However, I was putting my mental, emotional, and physical health at risk working four jobs. It wasn’t viable for me to continue that way any longer. Something needed to happen. Insecurity was a barrier in the process of change, and it did slow progress down in a lot of ways (and still is, honestly), but it was spot on. Honestly, when I’m looking at this, I’m pretty surprised that there was so much of it that was really accurate about what was coming up and what I needed to be aware of moving forward. I would now rate this rearing probably 4.5 out 5 now.
Reading #2: Achievement in business is at hand, chiefly because you are willing to make yourself available to your supervisors. But be careful not to buy others with gifts – this will only lead to resentment. You misinterpret another’s intentions. This could be a time of regret or separation, so keep your chin up and look for the light at the end of the tunnel. Don’t let nervousness or worry cloud clear thinking and action. People around you are cranky; morale is low. Stay calm through the chaos and remember who you are. Read all of the fine print – legal troubles are possible now. Express your ideas and take calculated risks. Getting what you want is your responsibility. Your passions are of primary importance to you now. News of a wedding, pregnancy, or children arrives.
I rated this read much lower at 2.5 out of 5, mainly because there was so much that just didn’t make sense with the things happening in my life at the time. My main issue was that it didn’t make a lot of reference to my writing pursuits. There is not a version of my life where I don’t see writing as a critical part of my existence. It felt so disconnected for that reason that it was hard for me to truly relate the information to my experiences without stretching it a bit farther than made sense.
As I am reading it now, with hindsight on my side, I can see that it was more relevant than I realized. The misinterpretation of others and feelings of regret and worry was very much present in my life since then. I’m only just now coming out of that fog. The advice to remain calm and be aware of legal issues that could be coming. There’s still a lot of stuff earlier this year that this could even be accurate yet. In hindsight, I would have probably rated this much at either a 3.5 or even 4, because it had validity too, in a very different way. I think that really shows the psychological power of being able to see and apply the information of the readings. Honestly, that’s what spiritual practices often are – training the brain to react a specific way to input. Tarot readings are meant to be a tellers of fortune and future, and opening my mind more to the possibilities of the readings is a vital part of this having a successful influence over my life. Not that, of course, I will ever put genuine stock in the spiritual aspect of this practice. More so, if I want it to work, I have to let it work.
The Reading Results Today:
What’s at hand: Stop trying to be a jack-of-all-trades. Specialize. You have strong sensual and physical desires just now. Don’t let your sense of self-discipline interfere with your personal happiness and fulfillment.
Past Influences: You made your bed, now you must lie in it. Own up to your actions and responsibilities – or suffer the consequences. Be true to yourself. Try something new.
Ponder This: Do you feel the adrenaline rushing through your veins? Now is the time to stretch yourself and test your limits. Be adventurous, daring, and competitive – within limits. Success and recognition will follow. It’s an excellent time to begin new projects.
What to do: Victories are on your horizon. Reject negative people but don’t judge them harshly. Appeal to others’ sense of fair play. This is a very good time for travel, taking a break, and getting away.
My interpretation & Opinion:
What’s at hand (Stop trying to be a jack-of-all-trades): This really stood out to me specifically because of how truly relevant this is in my life all the time. I want to be kind of good at everything, but also really good at some things. There’s a lot of pressure for me to do this or do that and be everywhere with everyone and I can’t do that anymore. I’ve been down the path where I’ve been pulled in every which way, and it’s just not reasonable for me to do that when I have to keep putting my passions to the side. If I want to be successful I need to focus on the things that I want to be successful at specifically and stop chasing every path that crosses mine.
What’s at hand (Don’t let your sense of self-discipline interfere with your personal happiness and fulfillment): This also was a big one for me because of the fact that I have high expectations of myself and a pretty rigorous personal and professional schedule to keep, which means I know how to hunker down and get shit done. However, I don’t get the same fulfillment from achieving personal and professional goals as I do when I reach personal goals related specifically to my passion projects. Since my last tarot reading post, I’ve been hired and willingly severed ties to a writing contract – gotten a new job – and made some serious adult decisions. Those things were all positive in their different ways, but they weren’t positive for ME and MY DREAMS. I’m so used to overworking myself to do what I’m expected to do that I’ve stopped working for myself. There haven’t been any serious investments in my passions for many months now and I have voiced how frustrating it is for me. Now it’s time to start doing something about it.
Past Influence (You made your bed, now you must lie in it): Without a doubt in my mind, exactly two things came to mind on this one. Firstly, leaving the writing project. Choosing to leave a writing project that I had already told people I was involved with and promoted locally was very hard and very embarrassing. I’ve been trying to make my writing into a substantial career since 2015 and have been preaching how I’m going to be a published author someday since 2005. For 15 years I’ve been wanting to do this and life keeps putting up roadblocks and detours that take me away from it, and I always end up hating myself a little bit more when I don’t put myself into it. Leaving that project made me feel like “this is it – I’ll never achieve my goal of being a published author.” I was very much in the mindset that I couldn’t do this now that I’d dropped off the project and that it was my last chance. The job change I recently underwent also came with many walls to scale that I still haven’t completely managed to get over yet, and that’s my fault. I made the decision to pursue this job that I do enjoy, but it came at a cost I wasn’t ready to pay. That’s the bed I made, and so I’m learning how to make it work.
Past Influence (Be true to yourself. Try something new): In a way, this contradicts the “Stop trying to be a jack-of-all-trades” comment from before, but I think it also kind of works to it. It is a fundamental part of me to want to learn new things. I’ve got a ton of art supplies, for example, that I want to learn to use the right way without going through the “trial and error” of yore. There are online classes that I can take in my own time and it’s been in the back of my mind for a few weeks. This is most definitely a sign that this is something I need to consider more seriously.
Ponder this (Be adventurous, daring, and competitive – within limits. Success and recognition will follow): Tying into the previous “Try something new” comment, this can definitely coincide with that past thought that needs to become a present action. I have known what my talents are and I’ve just been sitting on them. I don’t need validation as often as others in my craft because I feel confident in my work. I have a skillset, too, to not only craft something I’m proud of, but I have the education and experience to advocate for myself and sell what I do to the people who would enjoy it. I need to incorporate those skills into my passion projects and professional life. As for the “success and recognition will follow” part of this, I’ve already started walking down a path that will show me how well I can handle this outcome. It all comes one step at a time.
Ponder this: (It’s an excellent time to begin new projects): In all honesty, I started an outline earlier in the day when I did this card reading. It’s a project I’ve discussed with a couple of people and kept saying that I didn’t have time to pursue it. I can literally spell out how easily successful the concept alone could be without any other development, so it’s ridiculous that I should sit on it and wait for it to be irrelevant. I’ve been in a weird bubble for almost four months where I’m not able to give any thought to anything significant beyond my work and family responsibilities, but nobody is going to make time if I don’t – so it’s time for me to stop giving in to the whims of everyone else and make time to invest in myself.
What to do (Victories are on your horizon): There’s a lot in this reading that is suggesting that this is going to be a “breakout” year for me. I love the idea of that and I really hope that I am able to take the momentum from this reading, regardless of what I believe and don’t believe in spiritually, and draw this out for myself. I’m very hungry for a specific life and my specific dream of being a published author. I’m tired of letting the world dictate the way I live my life. I only live once and it is literally a waste of my time and energy to not give my ideas the love that they deserve.
What to do (Reject negative people but don’t judge them harshly): As a general rule, this is so important, right? The social economy is so thick with prejudice that it is almost literally palpable. I’m not perfect and I’m still learning how to be the most compassionate and socially aware person I could be, and so I am actively working on hearing different opinions out and working to understand the individuals that believe them. I have been getting better at being in the mind frame not of “Why do you believe that” and instead thinking “What happened to make you believe that.” There’s an inciting incident to everything we believe, something that made us believe the things we do, and I can’t help to educate others about specific topics if I don’t first understand what they’ve experienced to give them the opinion that they have. It is also good for me mentally because then I will be less caught up in the frustration of a differing opinion and more focused on the way to approach that differing opinion.
Overall Rating:
For now, I’m rating this reading skeptically, despite how much it does relate to my real life at this moment in time. For me, it’s about the ‘where’ each piece of advice is falling. All of it makes sense, but some of it ended up in a section where I think it would’ve made sense elsewhere. That’s ridiculous, of course, since I should be letting the cards tell me what I need to know. I didn’t go into this reading with a question or anything in mind other than – huh, I could probably do this today. So I shouldn’t be questioning the cards after the fact because that’s not how this practice is supposed to be conducted. Regardless, I’m skeptically rating this at 3.5 out of 5, since there is a lot that makes sense and will be useful to be mindful of, but also in part because of the order that the advice came in at this time. It’ll be interesting to look back in a few months to see how it all panned out and review what was useful and whether or not I was right to be skeptical.
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